Sometimes the timing of things confuses me......like is this God or satan.  Here's why....

We have a '98 suburban with 185,000 miles on it.   However.....two days ago...we finally got sick of smelling gas and I was worried that someone was going to throw out a cigatette and blow us all up to smithereans!!! (Is that how you spell that?  ahha)  So...it goes in the shop and I start getting all negative about it.  We'll.....Ken's parents has an Impala that they are selling...four doors mind you...that we were thinking about buying just because they would sell it to us for only $2300..and whenever you've had teenagers that drive...which we won't have until another 3 years...those deals are very tempting since they don't come around very often.  So...We went and got their car to drive while our suburban was in the shop.  This would be the test to see if cramming 7 people in the car (less Ken) and   shrinking our savings acct.  would be worth saving gas back and forth to school everday.  Now...having experinced 2 big kids with backpacks in tow in the front seat with me (since I don't want the little ones in the front because of safety purposes....and 3 kids in the back.....I've decided that saving gas is definately not a priority for me anymore!!!  We experinced Closterphobia for the first time.  Limb to limb, purse on my lap...head on my shoulder (awe...that I like)  backpacks at our feet..etc....  is  just a little too close while driving!!  So...buying the car is not something we need or DESIRE for now. Question answered.

Now...here's the other tempting part.  Ken and  I have been striving to get out of debt...O.K?  Suburban paid for...Visa paid off....ect.  I get an email on the same exact day that my suburban goes in the shop from a friend at church.  The email said..."Van for sale".  "Oh no!!" I'm thinking in my vulnerable state.  Only sent this email to ME!  I don't even know if she knows what I drive ....then again...she may think I need it. ahah  Anyway..her email said,"I thought about you.  We are selling our van and here is what it is.  "White....Toyota Sienna...XLE..fullyloaded with DVD player...44,000 miles...perfect condition...$16,500..Kelly blue book."  WOE MOMMA!!!  MY DREAM VEHICLE FOR WHEN I GET RID OF MY  SUBURBAN TO DOWNSIZE A LITTLE.  EXACTLY WHAT I WOULD PICK  OUT OF I HAD THE MONEY!!!  EXACTLY!!!  "Oh boy!!"  So...I get my calculator out to see what a car payment would be.  "Shoot...3-$400 a month.  That makes me sick to even think about."  I prayed and told the Lord...."Lord you know that the only way we could get that van is if it showed up on my driveway with a red ribbon and a key for free."  So...I bound satan too...for temtping me to be discontent.  "Bad satan...BAD BAD!!"  But...I'm thinking..."If the service guy call and tells me that our surburban is sooo bad off that we should just blow it up..then I would know it was from God....the van offer.  If it came back with minor stuff...then the temptation would be from satan.  We'll...our suburban has a VERY minor issue.  Just needed the gas cap tightened.  Guy said this suburban could go for another 3 or 4 years.  He's seen them with 450,000 miles on them.  I  have to admit that I wasn't praying it would be minor...but MAJOR!!!  hAHHAHAH  OK LORD!!  YOU SHUT THAT DOOR...AND I'M SLAMMING IT IN  SATANS FACE FOR TEMPTING ME!! 

How I feel about my '98 suburban today???????  Oh man.....after cramming 7 people  in a four door for 2 days.......everyone saying during the drive..."I MISS OUR SUBURBAN"......I AM KISSING THAT WONDERFUL....DIRT COLORED.....SPACEOUS.....STAINED UP CARPETED TRUNK...WITH BROKEN C.D. PLAYER AND A RIPPED UP LEATHER SEAT...WITH 185,000 MILE...PAID FOR DREAM VEHICLE OF MINE!!!  THANK YOU LORD!!!

THEN END!! 

How hard could it be to just stick in a video and it work?????  Something weird is going on!!  I tried to watch a perfectly good DVD about counseling yesterday and the testimony I was watching jammed up!  Like this scratching noise.  They both are brand new?  However, my tv is near the woodstove.  Could that be it??  One guy said that heat will mess up electronics.  I'm soo tired of this!!!

Then...all during the group....our t.v. made this high pitch ringing noise.  Uggg!!  Soo distracted me!!  The pitch would go up...up...up...and Ken and I thought it was going to BLOW!!! AHHAHAHAH  We sat in the back and said,"Boom!!"  It's bad enough that the videos are kinda dated....let alone the aged t.v. making that annoying sound in the presence of some major tech people in the group.  Ugg!!  We appologized for that...and by God's grace..they were able to tune it out...but it drove me nuts!!!  I'm like...."what else could go wrong??"  We had 13 couples....not room for anothere chair.  I sooo want one group to go well without any distractions so truth can be imbedded in their hearts.  What to do??  Maybe it's just me.   It didn't seem to bother anyone and they all were listening intently.  Having positive feedback.  And that's good!!  I shouldn't been soo negative.

I'm really starting to see alot of demonic control in peoples lives.  One girl said,"As I was sitting there listening..I just had to get up..my whole body was going crazy...like I had to get out of there."  Another women told me her husband comes from alot of satanic stuff and has some major health issues that she believes are not physical.  Another has some major demonic attacks.  He has "epilectic seizures"...mainly in church during worship. RED FLAG!!   They both believe that it's satan and are asking us for help to get delievered!!  Yikes!!!  My heart is heavy!! I've been facinated on the subject for a while and am reading  as much as possible and am encouraged.   I have to remember that God is doing this and He will be faithful in setting  the captives free.  "Oh Lord..I'm not John Reiger...or Derek Prince.  Your gonna have to take this vessel of mine that is completely at your mercy!  All I have is love for these poeple to get free...and my willingness.  You will have to do the rest.  Help Lord!"

We are taking a week off because of the women's event called "Embrase".  I'm hoping I'll see Summers picture high up somewhere.  The topic is Powerful women.  They took pictures of women in dresses/army boots..jackets..etc. in different age demographics.  Wedding dresses with army jackets.  The contrast of gentle vs. strong.  I'm looking forward to it.  All are invited...it's this Sunday @ 6:30...New LIfe in Greater Little Rock.

Happy Monday

We'll...I was soo hoping we could have our second week of small group without any glitches!!!  NOT!!!  We get ready to play our first video on "Evil for Evil" and our new vcr would spit the video right out!!!  Uggg!!  But...God wanted us to watch the first one which was the one we needed the most.  I don't like it cause it long....but good.  Anyway....I need to remember that God is in the driver seat and to let HIM lead!!

Everyone seems to be realizing their need to "get clean" and the lights are going off in their heads and things are making sence to them.  I'm excited about that!!  But...the common word I hear is..."scared".  A little fearful of cleaning house!!  Facing those closed doors to their heart that only they know where they hid the key.  Rooms that no one is allowed.  I pray they have the courage to open them and allow God to come in and clean it all out and fill that room of darkness with light and the presence of the Holy Spirit.

We had an amazing discussion on the movie "Fire Proof" which was their first assignment.  One lady said that her husband is totally different after watching it.  He's cleaning the house....taking care of the kids...made her breakfast..etc and now she is feeling loved and she's ready to show him some lovin.    I praise God for that movie and the lives it is touching!!  Praise God.

I'm excited to be apart of this jouney with God.  I'm seeing some amazing things that are blessing my socks off!!  Thank you, Lord.

Happy Monday Xanga Friends!!