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Monday, 16 November 2009

Wow!! I haven't been on Xanga in years it seems!! I think why I don't blog anymore much is cause I sit at the computer to veg. It's like Xanga is a ghost town. Is everyone just too tired to post like me? We like quicky updates like facebook? Even that is getting too much of a hastle to surf....or just too time consumming without much payoff in the end.
Updates on my life....
Today, Alexis goes to the doc. to check out her shoulder cituation.
Latte goes in Thursday to get nuetered. I wonder if they'll potty train her while she's there.
Christian is not feeling well today.
Ken and I got most of our Christmas shopping done this year...thanks to buying a puppy for the kids....that elliminated 90% of their gifts......with their great approval. Little Latte' has been soo much fun for the kids. She's a great dust mop when she chases for toys. She'd do that all day long!! It's better than any video game in that it gets the kids running through the house for exercise! hahah
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Took Alexis and Madeline to the mall yesterday and it felt like yesterday I was doing that with Candyce and Summer. I am soo blessed to get a second go around with two more precious daughters. They are fun to shop with too!! It's sooo hard to not buy them something they want when they are such great girls. I'm definately weak at saying NO....when they deserve much more that I can give. When Madeline does soo much for the kids....and always is humble and quick to make things right...it's hard to not give her her hearts desire. She makes the kids beds and gives them baths without me telling her. I love it!! I sooo want to reward that!! So...I did and bought her a white hodded vest and a cute green Aeropostale shirt....but might have to eat beans for a week to justify it.
Ken and I are reading a book together called,"Family Driven Faith" by Voddie Baucham and it is sooo good!! It brought tears to my eyes as he talked about this NFL couch, Joe Gibbs, that quit to come home and raise his family to find that they had already grown up without him. He "woke up" too late and they were gone. And I just had to put my book down at that moment to wipe a tear of how shopping with Alexis and Madeline was like dejavu with Candyce and Summer just a few years back..... and in just a few years Alexis and Madeline will be getting married or moving off like them. Sooo sad and yet how it's a time of urgency to redeem the time I have with them. To stop cleaning and go plop down on their beds and have a heart to heart....or whatever they are interested in. Taking that time to savor. Time.....something we can't get back once it's past.
Alexis said this morning as she had her hair curled...a pretty blue hoody with her new Ug Boots with make-up on ..."2 years ago...I would have NEVER worn this stuff." And I looked at her beautiful femine appearance and said," You are beautiful!! You have grown from childhood to girlhood..then you'll be off to womenhood. "(Which is right around the corner) It's a change that if you don't really watch....it happens overnight and you've missed it. With Alexis it has been a change from wearing camo with t-shirts and tennis shoes from the boys depts. (to church!! haha) to the feminie side of the beautiful young lady she is becoming. It has been fun to watch her bloom......and long awaited after the days of biting my tongue when she would want to wear the comfy boys clothes. She always hated the tight fittin...short...trendy clothes the teens now days wear....(which I'm soo glad) but she had definately found her style that is balanced between pretty and yet comfy. (She even wore hoop earrings to church Sunday!! Wow!!) Alot like Summer and Candyce. Not alot of frills.....but their countenance sings of jewels....of diamonds and rubies and bling. I love it! Comfortable to be around...but with such beauty.

Friday, 20 March 2009

Sometimes the timing of things confuses me......like is this God or satan. Here's why....
We have a '98 suburban with 185,000 miles on it. However.....two days ago...we finally got sick of smelling gas and I was worried that someone was going to throw out a cigatette and blow us all up to smithereans!!! (Is that how you spell that? ahha) So...it goes in the shop and I start getting all negative about it. We'll.....Ken's parents has an Impala that they are selling...four doors mind you...that we were thinking about buying just because they would sell it to us for only $2300..and whenever you've had teenagers that drive...which we won't have until another 3 years...those deals are very tempting since they don't come around very often. So...We went and got their car to drive while our suburban was in the shop. This would be the test to see if cramming 7 people in the car (less Ken) and shrinking our savings acct. would be worth saving gas back and forth to school everday. Now...having experinced 2 big kids with backpacks in tow in the front seat with me (since I don't want the little ones in the front because of safety purposes....and 3 kids in the back.....I've decided that saving gas is definately not a priority for me anymore!!! We experinced Closterphobia for the first time. Limb to limb, purse on my lap...head on my shoulder (awe...that I like) backpacks at our feet..etc.... is just a little too close while driving!! So...buying the car is not something we need or DESIRE for now. Question answered.
Now...here's the other tempting part. Ken and I have been striving to get out of debt...O.K? Suburban paid for...Visa paid off....ect. I get an email on the same exact day that my suburban goes in the shop from a friend at church. The email said..."Van for sale". "Oh no!!" I'm thinking in my vulnerable state. Only sent this email to ME! I don't even know if she knows what I drive ....then again...she may think I need it. ahah Anyway..her email said,"I thought about you. We are selling our van and here is what it is. "White....Toyota Sienna...XLE..fullyloaded with DVD player...44,000 miles...perfect condition...$16,500..Kelly blue book." WOE MOMMA!!! MY DREAM VEHICLE FOR WHEN I GET RID OF MY SUBURBAN TO DOWNSIZE A LITTLE. EXACTLY WHAT I WOULD PICK OUT OF I HAD THE MONEY!!! EXACTLY!!! "Oh boy!!" So...I get my calculator out to see what a car payment would be. "Shoot...3-$400 a month. That makes me sick to even think about." I prayed and told the Lord...."Lord you know that the only way we could get that van is if it showed up on my driveway with a red ribbon and a key for free." So...I bound satan too...for temtping me to be discontent. "Bad satan...BAD BAD!!" But...I'm thinking..."If the service guy call and tells me that our surburban is sooo bad off that we should just blow it up..then I would know it was from God....the van offer. If it came back with minor stuff...then the temptation would be from satan. We'll...our suburban has a VERY minor issue. Just needed the gas cap tightened. Guy said this suburban could go for another 3 or 4 years. He's seen them with 450,000 miles on them. I have to admit that I wasn't praying it would be minor...but MAJOR!!! hAHHAHAH OK LORD!! YOU SHUT THAT DOOR...AND I'M SLAMMING IT IN SATANS FACE FOR TEMPTING ME!!
How I feel about my '98 suburban today??????? Oh man.....after cramming 7 people in a four door for 2 days.......everyone saying during the drive..."I MISS OUR SUBURBAN"......I AM KISSING THAT WONDERFUL....DIRT COLORED.....SPACEOUS.....STAINED UP CARPETED TRUNK...WITH BROKEN C.D. PLAYER AND A RIPPED UP LEATHER SEAT...WITH 185,000 MILE...PAID FOR DREAM VEHICLE OF MINE!!! THANK YOU LORD!!!
THEN END!!

Tuesday, 03 March 2009

COME ON WARM WEATHER!!!!
DOES ANYONE NOW HOW WOOD HEAT AFFECTS T.V.'S AND VCR/DVD'S?

Monday, 02 March 2009

How hard could it be to just stick in a video and it work????? Something weird is going on!! I tried to watch a perfectly good DVD about counseling yesterday and the testimony I was watching jammed up! Like this scratching noise. They both are brand new? However, my tv is near the woodstove. Could that be it?? One guy said that heat will mess up electronics. I'm soo tired of this!!!
Then...all during the group....our t.v. made this high pitch ringing noise. Uggg!! Soo distracted me!! The pitch would go up...up...up...and Ken and I thought it was going to BLOW!!! AHHAHAHAH We sat in the back and said,"Boom!!" It's bad enough that the videos are kinda dated....let alone the aged t.v. making that annoying sound in the presence of some major tech people in the group. Ugg!! We appologized for that...and by God's grace..they were able to tune it out...but it drove me nuts!!! I'm like...."what else could go wrong??" We had 13 couples....not room for anothere chair. I sooo want one group to go well without any distractions so truth can be imbedded in their hearts. What to do?? Maybe it's just me. It didn't seem to bother anyone and they all were listening intently. Having positive feedback. And that's good!! I shouldn't been soo negative.
I'm really starting to see alot of demonic control in peoples lives. One girl said,"As I was sitting there listening..I just had to get up..my whole body was going crazy...like I had to get out of there." Another women told me her husband comes from alot of satanic stuff and has some major health issues that she believes are not physical. Another has some major demonic attacks. He has "epilectic seizures"...mainly in church during worship. RED FLAG!! They both believe that it's satan and are asking us for help to get delievered!! Yikes!!! My heart is heavy!! I've been facinated on the subject for a while and am reading as much as possible and am encouraged. I have to remember that God is doing this and He will be faithful in setting the captives free. "Oh Lord..I'm not John Reiger...or Derek Prince. Your gonna have to take this vessel of mine that is completely at your mercy! All I have is love for these poeple to get free...and my willingness. You will have to do the rest. Help Lord!"
We are taking a week off because of the women's event called "Embrase". I'm hoping I'll see Summers picture high up somewhere. The topic is Powerful women. They took pictures of women in dresses/army boots..jackets..etc. in different age demographics. Wedding dresses with army jackets. The contrast of gentle vs. strong. I'm looking forward to it. All are invited...it's this Sunday @ 6:30...New LIfe in Greater Little Rock.
Happy Monday